haha well basically i had this really really long dream! lol like they have been. but this one was side becasue in my dream keivn admitted to having slept with someone else ,like during the time when we started going out! lol i had to call him in the morning just to make sure he didnt. and he was getting mad becuase i was getting mad at him for soemthing he did in my dfreasm..but i wasnt getting mad u know......
lol

so anyway bascially i asked kevin if that was the best sex his ever had...lol
and he said no!!!!!!!!!!!! urgh that bastard...lol! so i was so mad becuase errr that's not possible! lol
idk if im sharing toomuch info here! idk the dream was funny! lol
so i had to find out details....liek what the hell in the world did that mean when i wasnt the best one...lol
so someone i knew that the girl he did it was was like daisy's exboyfriend's siter..or something..so i had to call daisy's mom and find out daisy's exboyfirends name and i had to tell her mom why iw as asking so randoma dn personal.....
and then i asked kevin about it..... and i was so mad but he thought it was funny...its kind of like the face he has when he talks about girls he used to like that i think are ugly...lol and it just make me mad...but he thinks its funny because he likes my reaction.... u know.....
so he was llaughing and i was mad becuase they made a sex tape...and i was so mad becuase thats something kevi would not do...like make a sex tape..and his excuse was that she was too pushy and nasty...idk
soemthin liek that

soi was so sad that i ran into this banquest room..there was a bll i guess...adnt these people that i do not know at alll w ere on the table... there were balck and whtie people..idk but the tabel started to get too craoweded and we were expecting more people that we had to sepearte the tables into two....so now there were two tables.... and i was witht he balck people..dik the relevancy of these dreams... but its in my dreams...and i was so sad that iw as crying under the table....
somehow someone brought up going to europe..... i wdecided to go too..... so we went.......bt the scary thing was ....was that i didnt tell my mom so i was using the credit card to pay for everything for the trip!! soscary! idk i wouldnt do soehting that psycho with the credut card...hahahah
anyway we didnt go europe yet...we were still trying to tget to the airport and there wer elots os stop overs..including one in meixo.......and there was an airport tram........ and we were always sweperated into the two groups...and i had to stick with my group......
haha i remember alva was there trying to comfort me...hahah..saying like dont wrorry well have like the time of out lives in europe...i remmebr kevin's mom was there in one of the trams and daisy came eventualky... we didnt talk and i neve fmentioned to her that i had to talk to her mom

i remember complicaterd airports with nice archetecture.. keivn as going to europe too i remember but i dont remember how it fit in...
oh i remember jsut being really sad but i couldnt break up with him because i love dhim..(so sad huh)...... i had to tell him how lucky he was that i was nt even trying to break things up........ but it wasl =the whole time he was taking everything so lightly and it was so damm annoying.... and not to mention hurtfull...


yeah i dk why the hell daiusy in my dream..peoabbyl cause i was looking at her myspace :P woohoo myspace...but lots of the stuff that poppepd up in my dreams reminds me of stuff we were talking baout the night before i slept..... hahah!
ok i bet u no onw is going to read this..

i wonderif my dreams are new or if i am just better at remembering htem? who knows anyway although bits andpeices of my dreams hasd come to me..i remember some of it now... a little of it is a secret for example there is someone in the dream i am not willing to even talk about hahaha

so my dreams incolves a combonation nad legland and a waterpark..kinda kewl... i remember lockers and having to one... there were two kinds..there were some that were close to water slides that needed a keey..

thje other one..had padlocks..alkl of htem had coin systems... i had a freinds who liced nearby and i went to his hous e becuase i needed stuff..i think i need quarters..... i was with kylan like trying to figure out the whole lockers..running back and form getting ht eocin..picking which locker

my mother met up with us

 

iremeber drive making a turn somewhere and someonw asking me if the turn was tight ..it wasnt....

the garbage tricks were kewl they look slike somehting u would find in legoland...haha... i had to dodge through them as i got ot my firends house... hehe ...

and they were animated...yeah

 

i remember jeff telling he was going to both of kevin;s performances...

hehe thats it for now.

the new me whats it like? it's basically this girl who doesn't care... i am less stressed out but the lack of stress comes..... indifference....

to prove it to u i have a midterm that is 5% or my grade to take in a hour and i am blogging haha and i havent read at all...AT ALL haha

i just like JUST remembered htat i have a big midterm tomorrow for marketing....and i havent read at all.....

yeah i od admit now i feel stressed but im not doing anything...now that i amstressing...it feels weird like me head has a headache i guess my head cant handle because i havent been stresses....

anyway...ive been skippingmy classes like crazeee

i miss a whole week of school..last week in three of my classes hahahah
and i was lotsa absent for the rest

haha

alva woke me today haha

and kevin too because they both called me this morning

anyway back to dreams...the only hting i could rmemeber form my friday night dream is that there was some filipino brand vinegar...jens tried it..didnt like and ..and i said i don't like generic brands!! i DONT like generic brands....
haha
..i only remembere that because nelly was using the vinegar and i remembered it...
deja vous....

my dream last night..i had a dream i was at the alpha kappa psi's house but it felt like it was sdsu because usd doesnt have houses...it was right next to delta sigma phi's own..yeah ....and people were in their greek letter sweaters...

the first dream i had...was probbaly my dislikeness of cheapness and nelly's and i crazzee grocery shopping day on friday!! I LOVE food and we have food....hahaha..we went to three grocery stores..so fun...

and the second dream was porbably from finding the greek store on college ave and i guess because i am pledging

so ready for my next dream?
well it was my sister's wedding--joann's wedding.... ihave a memory going out in like a night timy dress and then going ok what the hell am i doing in this evening dress whn i am summpose to be in a garden dress... so i was about to change
then when i look at mirror i realized that the dress was actually nice for the daytime...
it was yellow like a shimmery one and it had a flower somewhere the fabric was idk...some chiny chiffon...maybe acetate..haha idk my fabrics
but it was different...and nice

yeah and then someone gave me and my mom e
my mom tried to drive but she got too nasuated and felt sick and her driving was all wack
she was going the wrong way on a one way! i felt bad though cuase my mom felt sick...
somehow i got in the drivers seat and the police pulled us over
asked us if we wer eintoxiacated
i said my mom was and that is why i was driving
and police seem satisfied
so here i was driving trying to find the wedding reception
i call joann for directions
shes like take this street make a left here
i went in the wrong one
hten i got on the right road
but i drove to far
and i got stuck in the wrong place . the strange part was.... was that people were trying to trap us in this one room..i think kylan was with me..idk how we got out but we did
we ended up at a mall...i think it was a robinsons mall ..like u know..int he ohilippines...and i rememebr someone saying that it was the only place you get an ipod around there...

i had another dream wehre angelina jolie was my boss.... the offices ha cubicles...
i think dani was in my dream...and some parts of the building looked like a mall too ...like spacious....but that's all i oculd really remember...although i remember being tested on something and i had aoffice chair with me...but i dont remember much

hehe
so what prompted the dream... well ok... i guess becuase i still want to go to that rave..the evening dress part was from watching project runway..the ipod...i guess because i was charging it yesterday..... and thats all...haha

this one i dont really remember but this one was wierd haha for sure...
well i think it came in two parts
in the first part..... i rememebr swimming around in pooles that resemble hyatts at night...
so mara was there
then i rememeber them becomeing ice cagve tunnels and iw as running away form somehting. idk from what...but it was some really crazy.... like i guess thing full of booby traps (haha i hope thats right)....

later i rememebr being on a bed i think i remember my sister joann there...and some other guy...some filifpino guy..haha it was not cousin...and there was one big TV in the end of the bed and another TV on the side..so basically u can see a tv from any angle

the other part of the dream was actually before i was on a bed trying to watch TV ...it was in a classtoom and i guess i was with this guy and we were sharing desk...but then somehow in the end of the dream i felt like he didnt really like me anymore... like idk he wasnt interested anymore


yeah ....see....really wierd dreams i tell u.

lately ive been haveing really wierd detailed dreams...and i have been having a  lot of them recently. some of them feel so real and hurtful...some just wierd...anyway so last night i had a dream that there was an event and the host asked me to sing with him ....so i sand "how sweet it is to be loved by you"... hahah those were the only parts i had to sing..... how sweet it is to be loved by you...... and then he forced me to sing do re mi...and i bombed it... haha i soudned bad..and i said i quit in fornt of hte whole crowd.

i think this dream was prompted by american idol, my dream of becoming a singer, my love karoke singing, and me excited to go this rave called "how sweet it is" on march 18...but idk if i can go because i was planning to go the bay area to visit my sisters... hehehe..

maybe ill share more of my dreams ...at least the less private one :P haha

i could graduate in a year . . crazy huh? even with all my indecisiciveness..... leave of absenses..and failing classes.. i could still grduate within a year... but i'. not aiming for that. anyway i still have that whole idea of getting into pharmacy school in the back of my head..so maybe ill get my bachlor's and then stay in shcool longer so i get the prereqs done for pharmacy school. business classes kinda don't have the power of sucking me in..which i dont like...so idk

anyway haha ive been takin this online class and i freaked out last night when i found out the last test was due on saturday and i was banking on finishing it on sunday! so i thought i was screwed and got all depressed and stuff and i couldnt do any of hw. i almost skipped school..cause i was sad..

anyway i went to school and by the time i jumped in my car i was back to normal. my teacher today said i could turn in the hw i didnt do(bc i was depressed so i ddinto do it) online. and then i got to study for my quiz in the class before it..great...and then as for the test i missed my professor said he'll just double up my last test score..great...
yup...great! so i need to still do all the hw i didnt do...like now... and study for spanish.... he ignoreds me becuase i dont participate..that's not good..he said hed flunk us if we didnt particupate..so ineed to work on that.

i wanna see snow.

i have two more finals..... tomorrow!!! accoutning.... it's so sad how i barely anything from the past chapters. i jsut don't absorb the information. or im jsut not that into to it to absorb it? idk. it's so sad. i cant remember thing that i learned like a month ago and the new stuff..haha i never get it. i have to learn it on my own. im at sdsu library studying. and somehow it's not working out. i relaly dont think ill remember this tomorrow and i dont knwo what ot do!!! i really do not want to retake this class. ----grr... haha maybe im not suppse to be a business major afterall if i cant relate to accounthing htis much. --when business is all about money--- oh well i told myself id give myself one more semester... then we'll see.. i wann cry . ..  haha can i cry ?? im just so stressed out....

I even have a theo final which i decided to forego studying... cuase of accouting.... man i just want a miracle (i got it last time!!!!... i fot a good score on the test haha and it was LUCK i tell u luck!!!!!! it was multiple choice and all the answers i was getting were on the choices so i just had to pick the closet thing!!! haha and i gor only three wrong....amazing!!!) but its not multiple choice test!!! so dammit!!!!! and the last time was lucky...

tomoroow ill porbably be more stressed when i realize that i cant remember anything becuase i resorted to pulling an allnighter.... with no time to rest.....

ive already told bunch or people to be quiet... haha ........ i wanted to slap them in fact... hello!!1 its called the quiet room!!

and i saw this guy come in with water in one hand..so dizzy so sleepy...he's right there right now........ sleeping on three chairs.......that looks nice...

when i try to sleep on the ddesk my leg sleeps!!1 and then i jsut regret it...